Motherhood

aujourd'hui...(today....)
Today i had like the most boring classes and it was a pretty dull day but i picked up another Jodi Piccoult book so thats good.
Then this arvo i went to my neighbours and was babysitting her kids in return for tutoring lessons. This probably won't come as a suprise to you but i'll tell you anyway. I hate kids, infact i am terrified of them and so this arvo, mostly evrything was ok until the 7 month one started to scream and cry and i was doing all that i could and then the other one (3 years) went off aswell. The dad took the three year old away and bathed him while i held the screaming one that was drooling all over my knee.
When i finally got out of there i was so scared and stressed beyond belief
I was walking around thinking there is no freaking way i will ever become a mother ever!
I think maybe i will just pay instead. Thats how bad i am with kids.
Dinner with grandpa now (YAY...not)
God why the hell is he still here?

Sincerely, the girl who needs to get away.