Not coping...

Today was not good at all...
It starts off with me arriving at school early and seeing a friend (who aint a friend any more) hanging out with the bitch who is making me look like a horrible bitch. I feel sick when i think about how all those people think of me as a reject now. Dad and mum aren't talking to me because i was so cold shoulder last night. I am not coping well with the fact that i don't have enough on to be noticed, my drama doesn't require a parent always there and public speaking is over etc. They only ever speak about my sisters and how great they are. They don't include me in any conversations. NObody asks me how my day was but when it comes to my sisters it's the opposite. Then my school having this sleepover at the zoo and we all need a buddy and mine is my BF, but she let me know this morning that she will be in the Blue mountains. I burst into tears. It was an entire build up.
I got over it and pulled it together. I did well in NAPlAN. But nobody has asked me about it.
Mum picked me up from school at 5:30 and we had to pick up sister 2 at 6:30. She didn't come out until 6:50. Usually this wouldn't be so bad, i mean last week she didn't come out until 7:30. But i have just started tutoring and i have to be there by 7:30 and i still have to eat dinner and have a shower and it takes 20 minutes to get home.
I am so sick of ending up second tier, to everyone for that matter.
I feel really neglected and i can't help feeling ashamed because what if i am just looking for attention?
I need someone who will just listen to me
Yeah people listen, but are they really? Are they actually watching my lips move and hear sound come out or are they thinking about what they had for dinner last night.
This is precisely why i started this blog. So i could let all this stuff out and not feel too guilty about wighing someone else down with my stupid issues.