"if i could turn back time"

I wish i could turn back the clock...
Go back and do it over, transform myself to become someone assertive, gorgeous, outspoken, happy. Have it over again and take more risks and be more confident, you know?
This is so ridiculous, i can't even see a movie anymore without feeling totally depressed!
I am angry with everything. The fact that my grandpa is living with us, he isn't family! Family are people who are there for you, who don't forget.

The movie got me thinking though, Zac made quite a life for himslef. If i had the chance, i would too, but being in the land of no opportunity i really can't make my mark. Being a budding actress is really difficult. I am like this tiny fish in not just a pond but the entire ocean. I am going to grow up wishing and the end up as a fat cat lady but with no cats, you know?

I just don't have anyone i can really connect with and i guess that's why i am always on the look out for the knight in shining armour, my Edward Cullen, Mr Right...all that kind of thing.
I just want to be able to talk to someone, i want someone to think the world of me that isn't a family member, someone to give me the respect i think i deserve.
I sound like such a sucker so we're gonna forget i ever said any of that
when i talk about respect, i don't mean this, today i was honked at twice by guys three times my age, staring at my chest! Honeslty, get a life!
I feel so cheap when things like that happen, for gods sake, i was wearing jeans, a tee shirt and a jacket! Really sexy, honestly

I feel like i could drown.