A sense of belonging

School today was...well, not exactly fun....
I had an amazing day yesterday where me and a couple of friends (not in the group i sit with at school) went around the beaches, over huge boulders and talked about..well, girly things. It was so nice with the B'day girls family surrounding the table sharing hilarious family stories and then we went to the park and took pics. It was a great evening.
Today, however was not so great. The group i sit with, everyone hates at least another girl in the group! They talk about the wierdest stuff and whenever i go to talk about this cute guy i saw at the bus stop or this killer band i just heard of, its "Right...so anyway, see that food arangement in her lunchbox..?" It's ridiculous that now i am too worried to bring anything up that i might like to talk about in case they turn their noses down at my suggestion. That group is not where i belong, i need to sit somewhere else, with people that actually get together during the holidays and over the weekend.. Oh god, it is gonna be so hard when they ask, why do you sit with the Elles group now?"
I've been avoiding one of my good friends all day today cause....well, she told me not to join the Mag committee this year and i agreed, but when i went to tell the librarian that, she kinda guilt tripped me into it and then gave me chocolate so i said...yes.
Why oh why do i do this. The teachers totally know i am a sucker and they just know i will say yes. I've tried the black nail polish to kind of freak them out but no such luck so far.

sincerely the girl who can't keep her trap shut!