Added pressure

This will sound so immature, but i am going to say it anyway because am i not like any ordianry teenage girl?....
I met the cutest boy at this debating seminar and then i saw him again at my local shops and all i want is for him to notice me, notice the kind girl behind the spiral curls that only hide the assertive person i wish to be.
One of my good friends is really assertive and has the guys putty in her hands but i can't seem to take on this skill...
I was only thinking yesterday about this idea my friend put in my head. The Gypsy Girl. Wouldn't that be cool to be a gypsy? To move around place to place and experience the world but the more i thought about it, where's the security of an actual home and family.
Friends are every where but you can't pick and choose your family. My mums side of the family is aways o'er at christmas though we really aren't close at all. It's just polite chatter to fill the silence.
Only 10 minutes ago we had dinner and dad launched into the fact that my life is tipping dangerously. Work is taking over and my life is becoming unbalanced. I don't know if he's noticed but i really don't have time for rec. I have so much to do, things to plan for school and to study for. I am looking into a lot of things and then he said that i need to take on more responsibility around the house. is he deaf? I have so much on and now he wants me to do more work???
I wil be found tomorrow morning with worn out brain splattered all over the walls from my head exploding.
I can't wait for the holidays, this is when we get away to the country, just me and my two sisters while my parents get a few days to themselves.
I feel sick with all this added pressure.